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Saturday, October 09, 2004
i don't get how an optimist can sink into depression so often. how can an optimist give up so easily. maybe i'm just not an optimist after all. maybe i'm a pessimist. isn't that sad?had a really hectic and busy week. and today's my first free day since last friday, children's day.. and for three days within this period, i stayed awake for the whole night, sleeping at 9 in the morning... and my sleep time varying from around 7 hours to slightly more than 2 hours... so i end up feeling lethargic and tired and really drained off energy.
today things got pretty bad for me. and i'm not even sure why. maybe cos everything just adds up. during training alone today, i almost broke down and cried 3 times. each time i had to hold back the tears..
first time was when wensi asked me why i looked so distressed (i don't remember her exact words, but it was along that line). i complained that my week was damn busy and that today was my first free day since don't know when. she and qx were saying that their term break's very slack.. and i'm there complaining, then i just felt like crying. like why the hell am i so stressed out...
and then twice during training, oks asked why i look so depressed/sad and i had to say that i was okay when actually i really felt like saying that i'm super stressed out and pretty depressed. at that point i almost burst into tears again... sigh.. i don't like myself when i get this way.. i'm not fun to be around.. can u imagine not liking to be with yourself? not a great feel i tell u..
okay actually now i don't feel too bad.. hehe.. thanks to someone who tried to cheer me up.. i'm so touched... but i'd better get back to doing my work soon...